|He wouldn't let me photograph him for fear of embarrassment |
at ending up on a blog (who would do that?)
There are a lot of changes going on. And it's happening sooo fast! I home schooled him till he was in 8th grade. In 9th, we put him in public high school so that he could pursue his passion...football! I know, you're thinking, "His passion? Was changing the method of education worth it, for football?" This is a kid who writes English papers on the sport. He puts famous football quotes on his fb. He made JV as a freshman and Varsity as a sophomore. It looks like captain is in his future next year. He keeps his grades up so that he can play college ball. It's definitely a passion.
But, yes, lots of changes. I'm losing him. Oh, I'm not being mellow dramatic. I know this is a fact of life. And it's okay. It just happened so fast! I had him all to myself for so long. Now, his life is so busy. Mine is busy as well, and our schedules don't always jive. I have to pencil in time with him on the calendar over summer break! And of course, he's driving now, and that's just one more step away from me. I miss him.
He's not perfect, like I said, last night I thought I was going to kill him! In fact, he's a lot like me. Then he finds his way back into my heart. As I sit in the restaurant with my friend, he starts calling my phone over and over. I of course don't answer. He then blocks his number and calls again. I know it's him and pick up the phone anyway. "Mom?" (in a goofy voice) "I love you! I'm sorry." And I start to giggle because he is saying it in a way that he knows will make me laugh.
I remember being a new mom and having veteran moms give me advice. These are good times! You may not realize it now. The years go by fast. Your kids are your biggest accomplishment. It's definitely a tough job, but the rewards are immeasurable! In the long run, people don't remember you for the job you had or the money you made, but for the person you were and the impact you had on your family and friends. I'm grasping how true that is.
Love you Moje.